Purposing Faith

As we drawn close and closer to God, He breaks me down little by little
But to rebuild me right
mold us to His image
Here is where we struggle wondering why I am feeling this way or that.

Insure
A bit out of control
Where are the reins, what is happening to my control

Cocky - Conceited - self absorbed just a few words that have been used to describe me I am ashamed to say
Its who I have always been and has always gotten me through

Now, I am not sure who I am anymore or who I am going to be

God breaking me down

Breaking Himself out of the box in my mind
Purposing Faith,
He will build me back up to be better.
Stronger and wiser, I hope, Kinder and gentler more loving and understanding, more compassionate and able to shine His hope into the lives of those around me.

Insecurity
What a humbling experience.
Feeling some what of an alien in my own body

Having always been an outsider, feeling apart from the world
Now I grow closer to my Adoni & feel more and more alienated from the world
Yet this time more and more at peace
I pray thee My King when this season too has past you will have broken another set of chains which ties me to this world
lifting me farther and farther from my former self which I have loved so much.

Parting is such sweet sorrow.

What makes you think that I am like you

What makes you think that I am like you
because my face looks like yours
Because I have breath that i breath
well I am not like you
I do not see the world through eyes like yours
I will not see with out God
I will not let my judgments be made by what I alone see
I cannot let my values be shaped by this circle of life
I will not let The failures of men keep me from seeking His face
When I fail miserably I force my hands and will praise Him with all I have.
When I make a fool of myself I will fall on my face and bare witness to His faithfulness
We are confined to a finite time domain while housed with in these prisons but out side of our selves our spirits will fill the heavenlies and transverse the infinite dimensions of existence so when you say oh she is just like .........
Stop, stop yourself short & think, For I am unlike the countless you see before your eyes, I am the same as you, I am nobody but Christ Lives in me, I had nothing, I am nothing, I am a survivor, an over-comer, an extraordinary machine oiled , fueled, run and directed by God and striving to fulfill my desire to be the Bond servant of God.