Purposing Faith

As we drawn close and closer to God, He breaks me down little by little
But to rebuild me right
mold us to His image
Here is where we struggle wondering why I am feeling this way or that.

Insure
A bit out of control
Where are the reins, what is happening to my control

Cocky - Conceited - self absorbed just a few words that have been used to describe me I am ashamed to say
Its who I have always been and has always gotten me through

Now, I am not sure who I am anymore or who I am going to be

God breaking me down

Breaking Himself out of the box in my mind
Purposing Faith,
He will build me back up to be better.
Stronger and wiser, I hope, Kinder and gentler more loving and understanding, more compassionate and able to shine His hope into the lives of those around me.

Insecurity
What a humbling experience.
Feeling some what of an alien in my own body

Having always been an outsider, feeling apart from the world
Now I grow closer to my Adoni & feel more and more alienated from the world
Yet this time more and more at peace
I pray thee My King when this season too has past you will have broken another set of chains which ties me to this world
lifting me farther and farther from my former self which I have loved so much.

Parting is such sweet sorrow.

Over Extended

My heart swells with Grief
I cannot even find my heart
I feel the tears fall, the warmth of their pain
But where is my warm heart
Why is it breaking, when I cannot even find it

Your so far away
So lost from even yourself
And yet I see you
I can feel your warmth, your heart, your pain

I see you contort and agonize
I reach out
You slap my hand
Bad Girl
Bad Baby
Now Now go on, mind your own business

I can’t see through the glaze of my eyes
The Pain of my Gut, sinking and dazed I reach out

Where are you, I call out wondering and ashamed
You don’t come

Wait…… I feel you I knew you would come
Wait ……. You feel strange sadness
Who is this

I find My Lords Hand…..
Pull it to my head
Like a Monkey looking for grooming
God pulls me close I nuzzle in press in
He pets my head Stroking me Like a father does His Child

Rest, Fear not
The tears flow so lovingly pouring into His lap so strong like they will never end
My heart there it is
Reaching out to you
To cover your pain
With my love

Your so far away
Do you recognize who you are
Do you remember your Dreams
Do you remember a time when there was only the world at your finger tips, did you ever feel that way

Your so beautiful
Such an Amazing creation
Lost in lies
Hopeless and sad
Scared and alone

Can I reach out to Love you My friend
Anger, self righteous pride, Self condemnation filled with the pain and lies of this world gone bad
Recoiled I grow distant and faint
Confused, My flesh burns with disappointment and hurt
Words bring death, Words are power

Control………………
Wait
be not drunk with wine, wherein is excess; but be filled with the Spirit

Words Yes Words bring life
Words bring Hope
Words bind
Words up rise
Words encourage

Filled with Love, peace beyond human understanding, strength of the spirit not the Flesh
Lean not unto My understanding but Gods who ways are Higher than Mine. Living by faith not by sight
Love it loves always standing on the promises of God not that of the worlds who would have me walk away

Control, Power, Words, Choice

I will give and when I am empty I will lay my head back into the lap of my one and only father and let Him pour His spirit into filling me with His love empting myself of Me,
So long Self there is no room for you here in this temple of the Lord.

I reach out